well i am writing but now its with names
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well these days i have been thinking just thinking to myself
I have seen all these people all happy all around me and i wonder. if religion somewhat help or just makes you think of something that you are trying to avoid
My friend has been just joking about me going to church with him. I tell him "yeah sure.."
but actually i kind of wanna go. But i know that if i try to go i would never do it
At the end i will never now if
I have seen all these people all happy all around me and i wonder. if religion somewhat help or just makes you think of something that you are trying to avoid
My friend has been just joking about me going to church with him. I tell him "yeah sure.."
but actually i kind of wanna go. But i know that if i try to go i would never do it
At the end i will never now if
Trying
I dont really know what to talk about but i guess here it goes.
People in this world just let me down. My friends tell me to just let go and just to have fun. It was easy for them to say that cause they dont really know me. I just want someone to tell me something about themselves. Letting me know that they actually trust me and to show some kind of emotion or something. i really dont know what the fuck i am saying but its in that point in the movie where like best friends have that moment that makes you realize something.
There is where you are like they told me something i should just try to tell them about the past. he hurt the pain and everything that it hurts to say but they are your friend and he will understand. And probably not judge you. He has seen you at your worst and at your best but has never seen the true you.I am not the type of guy that says something just like that. i struggle on the thing i try to say to my friends. I care and i think i just care to much. I try to buy my way or just try to be the best friend that they have ever had. Money and smiles are the only things that i could hide but only one person has seen me but he is gone and hopefully ill see him.Everyone is like txt me or call me when i just cant hide my real self. AND DO THEY REALLY THINK I WANT TO TXT THEM MY FEELINGS. They could txt me. it shouldnt be the other way around.
Its not that i hide my emotion but its that i control them and deal with it. sometimes i cant it hits me.
I try to talk to someone or just go to someones house. Like today i called five of my friends that i know i could count on to cheer me up.
One didnt answer like always >.>
Second was shopping with her GM
Third she was one were trying to get her dress but kind of cheered me up :/
Fourth she was getting dressed so i let her go
Fifth he called back and talk(cheered me up) but it was somewhat enough
So stop me from doing something stupid like the old days
Having friends that just pick something else or someone else then you sometimes it hurts but i try to just forget about it.
People in this world just let me down. My friends tell me to just let go and just to have fun. It was easy for them to say that cause they dont really know me. I just want someone to tell me something about themselves. Letting me know that they actually trust me and to show some kind of emotion or something. i really dont know what the fuck i am saying but its in that point in the movie where like best friends have that moment that makes you realize something.
There is where you are like they told me something i should just try to tell them about the past. he hurt the pain and everything that it hurts to say but they are your friend and he will understand. And probably not judge you. He has seen you at your worst and at your best but has never seen the true you.I am not the type of guy that says something just like that. i struggle on the thing i try to say to my friends. I care and i think i just care to much. I try to buy my way or just try to be the best friend that they have ever had. Money and smiles are the only things that i could hide but only one person has seen me but he is gone and hopefully ill see him.Everyone is like txt me or call me when i just cant hide my real self. AND DO THEY REALLY THINK I WANT TO TXT THEM MY FEELINGS. They could txt me. it shouldnt be the other way around.
Its not that i hide my emotion but its that i control them and deal with it. sometimes i cant it hits me.
I try to talk to someone or just go to someones house. Like today i called five of my friends that i know i could count on to cheer me up.
One didnt answer like always >.>
Second was shopping with her GM
Third she was one were trying to get her dress but kind of cheered me up :/
Fourth she was getting dressed so i let her go
Fifth he called back and talk(cheered me up) but it was somewhat enough
So stop me from doing something stupid like the old days
Having friends that just pick something else or someone else then you sometimes it hurts but i try to just forget about it.
Always Here But Never With ......
Trying so hard to try to be the one that you look at and then the one that could stand out from the other guys that you see in front of me
Today we talk and i told you how i was here bored but still i could talk. then you asked a question and i laughed but then i told you what it was. We talked for hours and i never got tired of typing
with you the impossible becomes possible.
Today we talk and i told you how i was here bored but still i could talk. then you asked a question and i laughed but then i told you what it was. We talked for hours and i never got tired of typing
with you the impossible becomes possible.
Just Here
Just another day here. some people sometimes just have to think of what they say
I know that people dont know what they will would affect other people too
When a person just says that they are going to hangout with someone and then just says that they are going to do something then its just understandable. Then later when that person just says that they are busy the next day and they cant just hangout cause that person is just doing something with people then its just understandable because he cant get out of it
But when you see that person in a store just hangout with other person then you think if that person is just tired or sick of just being around you. You say to yourself he doesnt really wanna hangout with me, is there something wrong with , what is wrong, why would he say something WHY?!?!
This thing happen and sometimes you try to help that person but its just to give up
And when something happens then you say maybe the person is talking about you when the person says he is hangout with a friend later that has the same thing as you.
Your hopes are high that its you but you know deep inside that is not and then you think that thought again
I know that people dont know what they will would affect other people too
When a person just says that they are going to hangout with someone and then just says that they are going to do something then its just understandable. Then later when that person just says that they are busy the next day and they cant just hangout cause that person is just doing something with people then its just understandable because he cant get out of it
But when you see that person in a store just hangout with other person then you think if that person is just tired or sick of just being around you. You say to yourself he doesnt really wanna hangout with me, is there something wrong with , what is wrong, why would he say something WHY?!?!
This thing happen and sometimes you try to help that person but its just to give up
And when something happens then you say maybe the person is talking about you when the person says he is hangout with a friend later that has the same thing as you.
Your hopes are high that its you but you know deep inside that is not and then you think that thought again
I Mustache You A Question
To day I'm trying my hardest not to break and become weaker than I already am.
I'm trying to hold onto the last bit of SANITY i have very deep inside of me and finally take a stand to catch onto a grip behind this problem
I promise myself that i am trying to overcome it
Today was a pretty good day. Hanging out with my friends but being let down by someone that you wanna hangout but you cant. Getting this feeling that they are avoiding you and not getting a response
These four walls will just come close and crush my last breath and when it does ill just be waiting for that moment cause my world has already fallen i am just me waiting for my time to come
Now i have just one simple question: Just wait for it or just move on? Or actually just tell the person and maybe thing will change?
ill figure this answer in time or ill just be dealing with this for a while
I'm trying to hold onto the last bit of SANITY i have very deep inside of me and finally take a stand to catch onto a grip behind this problem
I promise myself that i am trying to overcome it
Today was a pretty good day. Hanging out with my friends but being let down by someone that you wanna hangout but you cant. Getting this feeling that they are avoiding you and not getting a response
These four walls will just come close and crush my last breath and when it does ill just be waiting for that moment cause my world has already fallen i am just me waiting for my time to come
Now i have just one simple question: Just wait for it or just move on? Or actually just tell the person and maybe thing will change?
ill figure this answer in time or ill just be dealing with this for a while
Decisioni
Devo prendere una decisione oggi. e io veramente non come il processo decisionale.
devo andare al ballo e voglio veramente chiedere a qualcuno, ma io veramente nonvoglio chiedere a qualcuno causare Sono ancora in amore con il mio ex
. Non so sequesto sarà sentimenti ogni andare via, ma la sua non andare in qualunque momento presto.
Voglio andare con la mia amica, ma poi se ottiene un appuntamento per andare conlui poi male essere quella che è la terza ruota.
Non so se posso chiedere a qualcuno o no?
Ogni volta che penso o addirittura chiudo gli occhi vedo quella che appena lasciato enon ha mai detto addio a me. e spostare 2.000 miglia di distanza da me. So che era lei
Stavo per chiederle di sposarmi a fine anno di liceo. ma la vita spuntato mia bolla ereso la mia vita di merda
devo andare al ballo e voglio veramente chiedere a qualcuno, ma io veramente nonvoglio chiedere a qualcuno causare Sono ancora in amore con il mio ex
. Non so sequesto sarà sentimenti ogni andare via, ma la sua non andare in qualunque momento presto.
Voglio andare con la mia amica, ma poi se ottiene un appuntamento per andare conlui poi male essere quella che è la terza ruota.
Non so se posso chiedere a qualcuno o no?
Ogni volta che penso o addirittura chiudo gli occhi vedo quella che appena lasciato enon ha mai detto addio a me. e spostare 2.000 miglia di distanza da me. So che era lei
Stavo per chiederle di sposarmi a fine anno di liceo. ma la vita spuntato mia bolla ereso la mia vita di merda
Ora io sono solo bloccato con uno spazio vuoto che cerco di riempire, ma potrebbeessere riempito solo quando lei è vicino a me, ma lei è lontana da me
e che lo spazio ci sarà per un tempo di vita
They say scare always fade but they leave marks that remind you of the truth
Ho pensato di tornare al mio vecchio modo. taglio e dimenticare. Voglio qualcuno chemi dicono di fermarmi, ma nessuno lo fa o non importa a nessuno
e che lo spazio ci sarà per un tempo di vita
They say scare always fade but they leave marks that remind you of the truth
Ho pensato di tornare al mio vecchio modo. taglio e dimenticare. Voglio qualcuno chemi dicono di fermarmi, ma nessuno lo fa o non importa a nessuno
Just Here By Myself
Sometimes it just feels like no one cares. If i just disappear no one will care
They will be like ______ who?? and its like i havent hanged out with anyone. i like when i just do nothing and everyone has a good time i just tell them some story so i dont seem like the person that did something or if i do something its just like becoming my old self.
And i dont wanna go back to that place.
I had a plan to do something but its just that like always it goes to shit i try not to get mad cause its just life.
Also everyone talks about their bestfriend and sometimes it just reminds me of my bestfriend and how we use to do things together. My friend always talk about his friend and sometimes i just miss my friend.
But idk. sometimes i want to be just compared to his friends. i am probably the 89779 out of 896896 friends he has but .
IDK
He is like my bestfriend but i know he has his bestfriend from birth and i know i could never be his "Bestfriend."
They will be like ______ who?? and its like i havent hanged out with anyone. i like when i just do nothing and everyone has a good time i just tell them some story so i dont seem like the person that did something or if i do something its just like becoming my old self.
And i dont wanna go back to that place.
I had a plan to do something but its just that like always it goes to shit i try not to get mad cause its just life.
Also everyone talks about their bestfriend and sometimes it just reminds me of my bestfriend and how we use to do things together. My friend always talk about his friend and sometimes i just miss my friend.
But idk. sometimes i want to be just compared to his friends. i am probably the 89779 out of 896896 friends he has but .
IDK
He is like my bestfriend but i know he has his bestfriend from birth and i know i could never be his "Bestfriend."
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